I can never get used to people being nice towards me. Like, the atmosphere where they make you feel like they want to talk to you, hang out with you — all in all, make you feel like they like you?
Ugh, that makes me feel all warm inside and surprised and such.
It is times like this when my really low self-image comes up a bit and my phobia of rejection dies out a little.
Tonight is such a good night.
I should take initiative more often because no one really rejected me ever when I did take initiative. I should be more honest about my feelings and tell people that I really do enjoy their company and not say twisted shit because I am too manly shy to say such things.